Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Boy Meets Girl

(Excerpts from Josh Hariss's Book)

"If you're single, I believe that God wants you to see that your story has begun. Life doesn't start when you find a spouse. Marriage is wonderful, but it's simply a new chapter in life. Its just a new way to do what we're created to do --- to live for and glorify our Creator.

Right now God is working all the elements of your life together for your good (Romans 8:28). This time in your life is part of your story. Maybe it's not what you had planned. Maybe you wish your Prince or Princess would have arrived now. But God is right on schedule. He knows exactly what's He's doing. He hasn't overlooked you. The circumstances you're going through---no matter how difficult---are part of the very happy ending He has planned.

Trust God's sovereignty. He sees your end and your beginning. His plan for your life can't be thwarted. He is in control. Trust God's wisdom. If marriage is His will for you, He knows exactly what you need in a spouse. And in His unfathomable wisdom, He knows when you'll be ready. His timing will be perfect. Trust God's love. Hasn't He given His very life to save you from sin? Hasn't He demonstrated His love on the cross? Then He can provide for your lesser needs too. Even your present trials are part of His loving plan for you. And whatever God has in store for tomorrow will be another expression of His love.

The Creator of romance, the Maker who arranged the first "boy meets girl" in the Garden so very long ago, is still at work."


Let go and let God. I have a matchmaker. I have lifted my wounded heart for His healing. And as Christ nurses my broken heart, I rest in His peace and love. Rest. A calming, relaxing one.

Momentarily, I declare a "man-fast"... A time to be alone. A time to be with myself. A time to be with the people that truly love and care for me - my family and friends. A time to get closer with God. A time to make myself productive. A time for me to explore new hieghts and soar even higher....

It feels good. Because I know I am at peace. Deep in my heart lies hope, love, and faith.

Friday, October 15, 2004

A Year After

Today marks my one year as RCSE in CDO. Can't believe how time flies so fast!

A year ago, I was still some kinda naive, sweet and bubbly lady who took the RCSE position for North Mindanao, more for personal reasons than professional. I was adviced that my request for transfer can be a career suicide as compared to the more lucrative opportunities the head office can offer. But I still took that leap of faith.

Here, I was exposed to a lot of things. Circumstances, environment and challenges (work related and personal) have molded me into becoming the person I am right now. I have pioneered a number of initiatives. I have trained a lot of people - and sometimes I discipled them (and even fired some). I have developed several processes and structures to better our systems. I have faced lots of issues and problems too.

Some people said I have changed. And I believe they are correct. Yes, I have indeed changed. I can now be feiry, assertive and forceful.... Nevertheless, I have maintained to be sweet and bubbly. Naive? - Naaah, I have matured. I can say I am wiser and stronger than ever before. And yes, I know I have changed - for the better.

This is just one year. Can't wait to look forward to what's in store for me in the next chapter ahead. But it's not all about work. Would like to see myself developing more of my personal side as well. And in time, I know I will get there... God will lead me there .... having a family with 3 kids and a dog, living in a country-home inspired house, with a wide grassy lawn surrounded with white picket fences! =)

Sunday, October 10, 2004

On This Sunday Afternoon

It is supposed to be a very busy Sunday afternoon for me. I have a Monday deadline to beat - which, Oh! by the way is tomorrow. This leaves me with only 17 hours left to finish my report. However, I feel my internal and emotional systems are not cooperating! Instead of beating the white horse, I feel oh so lazy!

I think I got to unwind a little before I get on to my business. That's why I'm here. I have not updated my blog in weeks, since I never had the time to do so. But I just realized, I will never have the time if I won't take the time.

So many things have happened. Much more on my emotional recovery. I have seen the light at the end of the tunnel. No, we haven't gotten back. And no, I have not found someone new. Nada! But am now singing a different tune. I prefer to write about it some other time.

Meanwhile, let me share to you what I really want to do at this very hour. I want to lie in bed and read Michelle Hammond's books. Oh, wait I just borrowed a couple of DVD's. Mmmmm, watching movies sounds pretty relaxing too! And here's my stomach grumbling, reminding me that I am hungry. Lemme see, I think I want to eat sundae or Mango crepe or any ice cream. Aahhh, what a life!

In the meantime, let me make do with what I have. Got to get back to my work now. Got to smile. That's the art of positive thinking. And yes, I'm going to have a one fun Sunday afternoon! =)