Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Just a Thought

It has been awhile since I left home and headed for Makati, in response to the calling of a lucrative work assignment. And now as I sit and contemplate about it, I am grateful for this break. However, a part of me is still somewhat apprehensive.

I am currently driving the whole communication and planning process from here in the head office down to field sales in the regions. A task I find so fulfilling, after building and institutionalizing the process flow – out from scratch. Truly, I am blessed with the wisdom, the attitude, the opportunities, and the support that I need for my job. However, there are moments that I ask myself, “Is this the life I want for my life?” Deep inside, I want to settle down, be married, and be a housewife. But I am doing the opposite. Laboring from 7:30 am to 10:00 pm everyday, working my way up the corporate ladder. It seems like I want one thing, but I am doing the opposite of it.

But then again, this may not be the life I want, but could this be the life that God wants for me? So that through my life – with my position and influence, I can be a blessing to others. This could be my ministry. And God could have wanted to bless me even more but with my resistance and reluctance I am tying His hands?

The greatest tragedy in life is failing to live out the purposes God has planned in our lives. I do not want to experience this tragedy. And so I ask for God to forgive me for my stubborn mind, and for my lack of faith. I should live my life in the way He has willed it to be, and not in the way I want it to be. For as high as the heavens are from the earth, so is God’s wisdom from mine. This is a recommitment for me to submit to His will and follow Him, where He will lead me.


Susan Abraham said...

Not to worry, dearest Rhyanne. How could God not love you in all your glory and beauty? I know your slate is wiped clean with him. You have a glorious soul.
And you are a genius in your job too. Rhyanne, I am so proud of you, my friend.