Sunday, July 29, 2007

Mind Games

I promised myself to learn how to play the game. Not to fall too fast, too soon. Well, it's too late now. I think I already did... But I think I have to let you go.

This thing we have is causing me so much pain. And again I am plumetted into a web of confusion. If you love me, show it. If you are really my knight in shining armor, prove it. And stop pushing me... if you have no plans on catching me when I fall.

Why do you play these mind games with me? Is it fun making me love you, then you backing out? Do you enjoy the fact that I am an easy hopeless romantic target, that I will love you always?

If so, well maybe I'll just stop. Then what? Game's over.... I guess you lost.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Learning The Art of Letting Go

If life is a game, to me, it is all about winning. Yes, I am an achiever. I felt like I was born to win all the time. I hate the stench of defeat. The pursuit for perfection has always been my passion. Mediocrity is not in my dictionary.

I challenge myself to always be a cut above the rest. I am conscious at all times to stamp my works with my own seal of excellence and quality. I make it a point to set a higher standard than the norm. This is just to keep me up on my toes that I may not be complacent and rest on my laurels.

Indeed, this philosophy has brought me to where I am right now and what I have achieved, so far. While the journey getting here has never been easy, it has always given me the comforting feeling of winning… or has it?

Lately, I just realized that this pursuit of mine is an irony. I work hard and push myself to the limits, so that I can enjoy and be happy. However, the very same quest is giving me so much pressure and unhappiness.

I have realized that I have the tendency to put off living in the present. I’m all too fixated of building that great rosy future, my eyes focused on the far ends of the horizon, dreaming of some magical rose garden. Too far has my sights gone that I have failed to enjoy the tiny buds slowly blooming – just outside my window.

Little did I realize that I am my own worst critic. I demanded more from myself. Now, am slowly adjusting my reigns. Sigh! … I am trying to learn the art of letting go.

Monday, July 02, 2007

On The Choices We Make...

If you want to be happy.... BE!

Life is filled with surprises. Yes, we live in an imperfect world populated with imperfect people (ourselves included). But at the end of the day, it is what we feel and think inside our hearts that really matters.

Happiness is a state of mind. The traffic may be jammed, the deadline might be short, the critics may be so annoying, the bills so overwhelming, the gossip about you - so not true! ... Now, it is a choice to either react in the situation... or respond.

I know it is not a bed of roses. Indeed life can be tough at times. And yet, the whole point of living is not about suffering and enduring the pain. Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass ... it is about learning to dance in the rain.

So now go and make your choice... React? Or respond?... To be? Or not to be? However way you choose - it is still your choice.

Now be careful, because one choice leads to another. The choices we make today could either be a consequence or a fruit that awaits us tomorrow.