Saturday, December 26, 2015


One day there will be a man who stays and chooses me each and everyday - and I will be loved.

I will loved for everything I am and the wonderment that spins of my own golden truth.

I will be loved for the moments of everything I'm not - because they will no longer be flaws, but the beauty of finding a silver lining within the darkest of storms.

There won't be any lingering questions, and there will never be the feeling of the ball waiting to be dropped crushing my heart in the process.

Because the man who loves me will be rock steady - and not only will he know what he wants, he won't have any problem pursuing them.

The man who loves me will see my value and he's going to do everything to secure it like a priced treasure, before any other man can.

Because sometime when we know, we just know.

I will be loved in between the spaces of day and night to the place where I can be held close enough to be treasured forever.

My fears will fall to the ground as the golden leaves of autumn's last stand.

I won't cling to maybes and what if's, and I will finally feel what it is like to have a man stand by my side as a true constant, weathering any storm that may arise.

I will finally know what it feels like to simply be loved.

I won't have to struggle with carrying the secret heavy burdens of life all by myself.  There will be a man who will hold and protect me in all of the ways I have ever desired , yet never actually have.

As fiercely as he will protect me, he will also love my intoxicating wildness enough to never want to change a single thing about me - except my last name.

I am not going to fight with him, trying to hang on to being "Miss Independent", because I will see in him the brave warrior soul that I have been seeking all along.

Someday, somehow - I will be loved.

I will be loved by a man who has amazing character - it is not his bank account, not his good looks, not his prominent title , but his integrity.

He won't be the man who seduced me with honey sweetened words, or those who promised me jewels and a trip to paradise.  But the one who saw me when I was still invisible.  He will be the one who saw me at my worst and yet still chooses.

And I will be loved in all of the clandestine ways my heart has longed for, with intentions tasting of authenticity and passion.  

I will be loved not because it is easy, or the situation proves to be convenient, or because I am the best option - but because I am his choice.

Someday I will be loved in all of the ways I have never been and it won't be with someone who wishes to clip my wings or who only wants me on his side to make himself to look more appealing.  I will be loved by a man who looks at me and can never seem to get enough of my enchanting mysteries.

Someday I will be loved and it won't matter what he does for work, it won't matter how much money he has and what type of car he drives.  The precious thing that matters is that he is going to hold me close and love me like no one else ever has.  For me, this is the type of astonishing wealth I am seeking.

I know that someday I will be loved - that someday, someone will choose to stay where others have only left.  I will be loved fully and completely. And that man will show me why I stayed single for as long as I did.

Whether it is tomorrow, next month, next year or even three years from now, I will be loved.  I will be loved with the force of gentle hands and passionate heart.  I will be loved with desire's touch and gentleman's smile.  I will be loved with a brave spirit and determined mind.

Someday I will be loved in the right way for the right reasons... That kind of love who is willing to risk everything for me... Because I deserve the very kind of love that I am willing to give - and that is pure, authentic and whole kind of love.